Thursday, May 27, 2010

A . Weighty . Matter



Logically, I do get that Hollywood/The Modeling Industry is one world, and everyone else lives somewhere different. However, when I saw that this girl (Alyona Osmanova) was just moved to the plus size division - yes, + size - of her modeling agency, I kind of lost it.

I'm a size 4/6. I'm a vegetarian. I eat mostly healthy stuff, with the occasional bit of ice cream thrown in. I run 4-6 miles a day, five times a week. I'm 5'8" and weigh somewhere between 130-135 (I don't use scales). And I almost constantly feel fat.

It's not because I think I look bad, or even that I feel uncomfortable in my body. But everywhere I look (ahem, movies and magazines), I see tiny skinny people. And then I feel heavy. If I have to ask for a size 6 at the store, I feel embarrassed. Which is ridiculous.

I'm not blaming the media either. It's all of us. We're so focused on the extremes - ultra skinny or obese - that it's difficult to feel comfortable in the middle. It's difficult to feel comfortable at normal. Sometimes I just feel that it shouldn't be so tough to not be so hard on yourself.

Le sigh...

Pic: Fashion Copious

15 comments:

Post Grad Hair Cut said...

That is ridiculous! Is it her hips? Things like this must make actual 'plus size' ladies feel enormous.

I've been watching the first two seasons of Mad Men and I have to say it makes me feel so good. The women are full-figured and gorgeous and the men love it. What happened to that mind set?

rebecca said...

It's the Girl Hot vs Guy Hot debate. And Girl Hot seems to be winning in the minds of the media...

Purple Deer said...

YOU'RE KIDDING! HER!? A PLUS SIZE!? This vision of fashionable "thin" has really, really gotten out of hand. I'm a vegetarian as well. I just ha a baby too. I gained a lot of weight during my pregnancy and now I'm 145-150 (Before baby 120) and 5'2 (So there's no length to pull it around). But after I had my baby instead of being completely devoted to him I was completely worried on my new look, and how to loose it. And I know I don't look bad, but the guilt is unbearable now even if I have a veggie sandwich. It's almost makes me want to stop having children (It won't but I hated what it did to my body). And no one should think like that. But the million dollar question here is how do stop this taking over the media as "Pretty"?

Taylor Sterling said...

I feel the same way! I am 5'5 and I wear a size 26/27 jean and a 2/4 dress and i feel fat often. I work out a lot and so I have muscles. My legs are not tiny. I sometimes look at models and feel like I must be a cow and then i snap out of it and remember that I love who I am and don't want to change! Sounds like you are like that too!

K said...

This is a good post. I've been feeling down about my size now-size-6 hips recently, and this post puts things into perspective. Sometimes it is hard to rationalize my way out of low self-esteem. That model is beautiful, and its silly that women are either classified as uber skinny or "plus size."

laura may said...

If she is plus size, I am morbidly obese. I am 5"7 and 105 kilos. That is large, but I think the standard of 'large' these days is beyond a joke. I am a curvy girl & proud.

lm.x

ItsAllAboutTheCats said...

As someone who is short (5' 4") and truly plus size - but not obese - I wear a size 12/14 - this girl is just skinny! Would that they truly used plus size people for plus size clothing. I try to eat healthy - am fairly active - and although I would love to weigh less - I try to be happy with the fact that i am healthy and love the way I actually am! A revolt needs to happen!

Shallow Mallow said...

Oh don't get me started..

I am a tad over 5 feet 9 with a 28 inch waist but a model my size would be expected to have a 26 inch waist or smaller yet. Hell, I go down to 27.5 and I am suddenly all ribs. Sure as hell isn't pretty.

I enjoy Lula magazine a lot but I do get annoyed that they insist on almost exclusively shooting emaciated models with tight clothes slipping off their boney pre-pubescent hips.

I think personal style blogs are a good way to counter the distorted images we see in the media (and let's not even start about post production beautification).

I much prefer seeing a lovely outfit on a flesh and blood girl who leads a healthy life-style rather than starving herself into an early grave for her dayjob.

...love Maegan said...

OMG ...first of all ...and secondly, OMG.... I'm sad you feel embarrassed to ask for a six!!!! I LOVE being a size 6. Like love it! Because it means I still have booty and boobies! and I love that because it's sexy ...and boys like it ;) EMBRACE IT ...and fuck what "they" think is "perfect" because if you ask any man, they will say "she's too skinny"!

happy weekend!

drollgirl said...

a size 6? that is TINY to me! i wish i was a size 6!!!! this issue is so tough. i am 39 years old and i still struggle with all of this crap. i see fashion mags, watch tv, and movies, and mostly all we see are perfect, tiny women. i am not and will never be one of these women. sometimes i am fine with that, and sometimes i just feel like such a hideous beast that will never measure up. it is frustrating for sure.

Mother of Style said...

If this girl is plus suze than what do they call the girls who have a few rolls? I don't understand this.

alyssa said...

gosh i can't believe she is plus size! that's crazy! she looks great!

saira said...

It's very depressing that anyone who is a size 4-6 (think that's a UK 8) feels embarrassed asking for a dress in that size. When you see truly, luscious beauty like Marilyn Monroe/J-Lo/Beyonce/Scarlett Johansen none of them are skinny. Watching SATC2 recently makes you realize how fab Charlotte looks compared with super muscley SJP. We have to get out of the mindset of every woman being skinny and the first place to start is to not read fashion magazines. Just a thought. ;-)

Pretty Little World said...

That's such a good point, and such a difficult trick to pull off! I love, love, love the clothes in the fashion rags, but do so hate that they're always on itsy bitsy bodies.

sisters in black frocks said...

sad, she looks great